sickening.

its sickening how you would not let me do what i want for my life.
because of your sickening ego and 'no'
you've just started war.

My itsy bitsy world

i have a little dollhouse, sometimes there is only me. somtimes there are some other people in it. im selfish. i own the dollhouse, and it is mine. i decide who to put in it and who to take out. im a selfish girl who does not show the world to my dolls. i control what they eat, what they do, what they think. im a control freak. i dont care what they want or what they need, what i care is what i get out of them. fun. i dont share, i make them do what i want them to do. i love them, i hate them, i kiss them, i slap them.i dress them and undress them. i suck the life and happiness out of them. nobody knows anything about this. its just me. in my head.

A day out to music matsuri

I enjoyed my day at swensens with these two lovelies!
Charmaine and Magdalene.
we are all nurses!







the rest of the pictures are in my facebook album. ^_^

thank you charmaine, for the wonderful pictures! <3>

Thank not Ask

WE THANK GOD FOR THINGS.
NOT ASK HIM FOR THINGS.

Olfactory notes

i fell in love with scents when i was 8.

that was when i got my first bottle of perfume.

i could still remeber how it smelt like, but its long extinct now.

not very nice though, i wanted it because it made me feel grown up.

i like how people communicate by smelling each other.

it makes one person whole.

i like smelling things and people. i think its a habit.

smelling nice is important to me,

maybe that's why i like bathing and have over 15 bottles of perfume in my cupboard.

i know i'm mad.

boring things

BORING choreshomeworkprojectsexamsschoolricepotatoes
SURPRISES vacationchocolatecandypresentsicingoncakes

"Mass is boring. Like rice and potatoes. The exciting things in life is like icing on cakes. You can't live on icing alone. It is the boring things like rice and potatoes that nourishes and grow you."

Fr Leon

Nightmare

Pain granted me wings to fly.
I took flight out of your sight.
You tormented, cried and pleaded,
and did not stop with your endless search.
The south winds blew me back to you.
I struggled to fly again,
you robbed me of my wings and made me human.
Tears warmed my cheeks,


I realised I love you. Very much.

Random thought 2

Telling someone you love him/her without meaning it is just being nimcompoopish.

I meant it.

Somelight

20% of the world's population sneeze in reaction when looking up to bright light.

Im one of the 20%.

Try it yourself, sunlight is best. Don't look directly. It fries your eyes.

Man behind the factory

Whipped cream will not be called whipped cream unless it is whipped with whips.

Everybody knows that!

-Willy Wonka, Roald Dahl.

no time to remember how to do APA referencing.

DIE! nursing school DIE! Heh.

light headed

feel like somebody is sucking out my csf.
mad. yes? no?
my feelings are as constipated as my bowels.
i need to poop.




p.s. just being a little crzy. no, crazy.

shut up

don't wanna talk about it
don't wanna think about it
stop reminding me
don't bring me back to struggling with myself
i have made my decision, somehow its what both of you want.
you convinced me to try, so stop telling me i can quit anytime now!
i will kill myself knowing i have wasted so much time.
stop crying, stop feeling sorry,
you are not making me feel any better.
it is not helping.

love is still there, but some part of me still hates...

How i dread school.

Only things I love about school is
Fiona, Eddy, Japanese class, Friday afternoons,
and the fact that it is near Terence's school.

Unagi

Aiyo the poor fish already has no arms or legs and you are still complaining when you are eating it?

Random thought.

Be nice to me or i will run away.

Breakfast at Provence

with 'stone' minds and happy hearts.
with Japanese bread and sandwiches.
with the right company.
waking up early doesn't seem that bad after all.

Ingredients for a perfect afternoon.

p.b.f x 1
Gerri x 1
beef noodles x 2 soup x 1 dry
dessert x 3 yogurt ice-cream in martini glasses
cake x 1 that says JUDE
fruits x 1 plate seedless grapes, x 1 plate strawberries
much story telling x whatever the content

Ingredients may vary according to one's preference.
Try it for yourself.
100% satisfaction guaranteed.

How about a penny?

A penny.
A dollar.
50 cents for you.
And the 10 million dollars.
Many questions and answers were bought and sold.
I am a happy customer and sales person.

Thank You.

Thank You and hope to see you again.

I feel so much richer now. With the 10 million dollars.

Pretty Pretty Friday

Me: Hey! A puddle! You wanna jump?
Both: *bends down to look*
Both: No!
Both: *laughs*
Him: Stupid question.

Things that make me happy

God
P.B.F
Cake
Lizzie
Parables, TOG and WOW
Supermarket
Baking
Church friends
Pretty costumes
Cousins, Grandparents and Godma
Singing
Good music

what makes you happy?

KISS

WHAHAHAHAHA!
L'Arc~en~CieL's new album KISS.
Just got it today... yayness~

"i like you"

words that are not ment to be said too early.
words that can utterly ruin one's friendship.
hurry!
hold it back before it is too late!

Nihongo no Kurasu

Japanese classmates and Hiroko sensei.
couldn't upload the rest.. dunno why.. stupid blogspot..

irritated, pissed. very.
why ar? i really don't know.
maybe it was you, turned so materialistic.
what the hell happened to friendship?
i guess material items are more important to you now.
bye.

you people don' thave mouth is it?
you could have just asked.
such words like courtesy and considerate exists.

irritated.

or maybe im having my pms.

the retard is now confused?

oh my oh my
now what? now what?
im confused, am i confused? or do i think im confused?
bout 2 things now. both impt but one of which is stupid, stupid?
really stupid? don't know.

shall pray for answers.

To Dad

although i really love you and its partialy my fault for what happened.
im sorry.
but you need to take care of your ego and learn how to apologise.
and stop assuming you know what im thinking.
im sad to say that we are quite different people.
and have you noticed?
we can never hold a serious conversation. ever.
because at the end of everything you just want me to do what you want.
you just want me to listen to what you have to say, communication is a 2 way thing.
its going in one direction for now.

im sorry that i didn't turn out the way you wanted me to.
i have never pretended to be someone else

will it happen?

how long are you willing to spend time with me?
will it stop?
will it be like the past?



i hope not.

Sometimes

you so cute i just wanna hug you.

For my P.B.F

You are the one who has always been there.
You have always been the one i depended most on.
You are the one i trust most.
And you know i don't just trust anybody.
We have shared countless of tears, joy and happiness.
And the occasional stressful moments of our lives.
We know we cannot hide anything from each other.
Because somehow, i cannot take it, i will tell you.
Because somehow, you cannot take it, you will tell me.
You are the only one that can read me like a book.
I have yet to meet another person, as superb as you.
If you know what i mean. ha.
You have endured my endless whines and madness.
Words alone can never be enough to describe how much i treasure you.
And I can never ever thank God enough, for you.

Angelyn, you are my irreplaceable P.B.F

Photo credits to mel, taken from her blog

goodbye?

was it longing for each other?
or was it plain wanting to say good bye?

Hello 2008

Its still Christmas! Its still Christmas! I Refuse to believe its over!!!
Love last year's Christmas to bits.
still cant get use to 2008.
still abit confused.
maybe too much partying and sleeping patterns disturbed i feel like I'm in the US! ha, i think I'm mad already.
new year's resolution!
good bye hospital food! no more! no more!
Thank God i haven't took more than a spoonful.
disgusting creepy food.